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I am currently un-employed, having been laid off from an administrative job at a university out west. I moved out west with my husband when he received an offer to be a tenure track position. I was caught a little off guard when he accepted it, and am rather unhappy there. My home is in the northeast, having moved there when i was 19 and expecting to spend the rest of my life there. My bio and chosen family live there. I'm hoping to be able to move back again soon, meantime I visit as often and as long as I can.

But, that's dull, isn't it? I hold a master's degree in an interesting and highly specialized subject that I pursued for personal reasons. It has worked out for me a little bit professionally too, in that I'm able to work as a college instructor from time to time. Not anything that will make me a whle lot of money, but fulfilling most of the time.

I'm mostly sad these days because living out west isn't working out so great. I am a family person and being so far away from home leaves me feeling unfullfilled and basically a failure in life. You see, I really wanted to be the mom and grandmom who stayed at the family home, held parties and family get togethers, and was in the home that was familiar and safe. I travelled throughout my childhood and teenage years because my father was an army officer. I really dreamed of being the kind of "stay put" person - but I just haven't earned it yet, baby. Or, I didn't value it enough. Needless to say I'm depressed and self depricating these days - but I've got an appointment to get some professional help coping with the reality I'm living.

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